have you ever prayed for something so vehemently
eyes shut so tight
a spectrum of the hues of the rainbow are the display before your blackened irises
have you ever hurt so much you could only believe that God would send you your one request to relieve the pain
have your prayers ever exhausted you?
you pray for reprieve ritualistically
wake up, brush your teeth, pray
undress for bed, brush your teeth, pray
have you ever cried out in anger to the He above
the He whom you felt ignored every prayer every tear every whimper every shiver every pang
have you ever felt so hopeless
so robbed of life
get home, undress, no need to eat, turn the lights off, sleep because it's better than feeling
but even then a shadow of a prayer ran across the television screen of your cerebral cortex
even in (hope)lessness there was hope?
or is it a reflex by now?